emoish derek

OMG today is a fuck up day, i was so bloody emo, i didnt even go college today, eventually i lied to my parents saying that i when college, but heck i go to Gym instead, generally workout there for about 2 and the half hour.......... gosh feel great at one moment but, the feeling or lonelyness weeps in my mind again. Not to say that i had no gf , nor friends, but feeling numb at the moment not knowing what was the cause of it! Sometimes i just feel that , i am alone, everything i do, no one gives a DAMN about it, gosh, maybe i feel unappriciated.......... dont know seriously numb......thats not even the problem...... i dont know why , arggghhh maybe a little dota would help me ! chow guys, would continues my ghost stories another day! bye peeps